I haven't updated my daily news so long. So many things happen; l can't write all them on. But now.......l think it's a good start. I met my new boyfriend which is my fd's fd. l never expect to build that realtionship that fast, but l want to get a new try. IF l never try, l might feel regret. After my ex told me to see his xanga, l don't have any feelings now. it's out of my expectation. I thought he chose this decision with a deep thinking. As l saw it, l would said god gave us a challenge which l gave up the chance 1st. WE can't pass this challenge. Actually, l know it was a challenge but l can't wait without any result. I hate that, so l gave up the relationship and try to start the new one. I don't blame on him anyMore now; no matter what, he made the decision. YES~~~~ Now....l have a new relationship..but something is going on. l need to observe more .......................
Since he asked me out, he drains my energy down again. I think this time might be the last time. I should keep reminding myself and not to see him anymore. But why he asks everytimes, l have to go out. Why don't l have a self-control? l really can't afford those pressure as they come together at once. I cried and who is going to help me???? I feel disperate as l expected he's the one who guard me..but not anyMore.
My friends said l act so weird today. I don't why l act unusausal. l think it's because of THat.....um~~~~~~~~ l feel regret to talk to somone now. I feel not like to talk to him anymore but how can l reject him? Because of him, l have cold now~~~~ should l put some excuses and tell him straight forward? Sign...l really don't like ppl who swear alot~~~~
l feel so down again..is that because l'm so free now after the mid-term? l should keep myself more buzy and more buzy. I don't want to think that much but l can't control myself~~~ Do l need to cry it out and no More tear ???? My emotion always up and down recently. Sign~~~~~
